Story of My Life...la lala lalala

My last couple of weeks in a nutshell:

-I HATE SCHOOL
-I am sick of Journalism
-My blind cat Gypsy fell off the side of the steps
-College applications
-Doctors' appointments out the wazoo
-Horrible earache, TMJ (sucks)
-Aunt had a baby (super cute. FINALLY a boy)
-Cat gets sick, has to go to emergency
-Cat gets put down
-Mom is a wreck over the cat
-Credit dispute over the cat
-Mom gets physically assaulted by a veterinarian
-Cousin with brain cancer is told she has two weeks to live
-Horrible dentist experience
-COMPLETE NONSTOP CHAOS

Anything good out of this whole experience?
I have an awesome boyfriend. That's about it.

Current Mood: blah

I am going kind of crazy not talking to my boyfriend. It's only been like. . . a little over a week since I've talked to him on the phone, but I never realized how important that hour or so a night was, until I hadn't been talking to him. I am just bored and all I ever do is homework. It really sucks; when I am not working, I am doing whatever I have to get done while I have time. However, this weekend should be fun, because it is the final Drama Club play of the year, and I am excited to at least be on makeup crew. I just need to come up with the money to go out with, now. :) I think I am really going to get back into this thing this time. I'll probably update again at some point this weekend or on Monday. Whenever, you know.

Toodles,
Gina

So, I don't think that I have updated this thing since September, and so much stuff has gone on. There have been a few good things, more bad things, and just a ton of insane things. So, here is an update of everything that I can think of happening in chronological order.

-My best friend stopped talking to me for an unknown reason.
-I got a new job at Gabriel Brother's.
-I had a huge crush on this boy, named Charlie.
-I did a bunch of awesome, fun things with Charlie and his family.
-I had my heart ripped out and stomped on.
-I had an extreme nervous breakdown and moved out of my house.
-I moved in with my grandma.
-I started talking to this boy who I met on MySpace and fell in love with on the phone.
-I spent my entire "holiday break" working my ass off.
-I developed a really shitty reputation at school.
-I really started thinking about my future.
-I got super stressed out at my grandma's house and got into a huge fight with my grandpa.
-I spent weeks in and out of doctor's offices and hospitals.
-I was put on a strict diet, lost 3 lbs. in two days, just because of a misdiagnosis.
-All of that, and all I have is Irritable Bowel Syndrome.
-I made it official with my friend, Louis, and he is now my boyfriend.
-I couldn't be happier as far as relationships go.
-I moved back into my house.
-I am already losing my mind over it again, and this time I am stuck.
-I am in super bitch mode tonight, because I stayed late after work, my feet are killing me, I am in pain, I am way too fucking tired, my mom is a nag, and I am scheduled to work for the next five days in a row.

Shit, this sucks. Oh wait! I got picked to be a Camp Fitch counselor today. Yay for me. I am really excited. This was an extremely condensed version of what has gone on lately, leaving out a ton of other things, but oh well. The end.

Current Mood: cranky

So, I totally didn't sleep last night. I RARELY have trouble sleeping. My explanation could be one of two things, it was either the fact that I drank two pops from Taco Bell and a hot chocolate at Barnes and Noble, or that I just had so much fun yesterday that my mind was just on insane/happy overdrive. Either way, I was so hyper and happy this morning. I couldn't even stay in bed, I didn't do my hair for school pictures, and I didn't even care. It is my last school picture too. That seems so crazy when I say it. Wow. Anyway, the crazy mood started to wear off around 5th period, and I have felt completely drained ever since. I had a Drama Club meeting after school and then had to go to work. Work wasn't too bad, but I tend to drop things and be very clumsy when I am tired there. Oh well, I suppose that it's all in good fun. I think the hilight of my work day is when I somehow managed to splash hot pepper juice in my eye. I mean sure, that sounds awful, but I thought it was hilarious. I mean, come on, who can get mad when they manage to totally skip their glasses and get hot pepper juice right in their eye? It was amazing. Wow, I have no life. The hilight of my day was an eye injury. That is real sad. :) Then. . .I came home and wrote my "mini-mise" for Film Study class on the Maltese Falcon. For some reason, classic films just aren't my thing, and I don't really find original film noirs to be all that entertaining. However, I must admit that they are very cleverly done; and there was a sweet scene where Humphrey Bogart got clocked a good one right in the throat and didn't even budge. That man was invincible in that movie. So yeah, the mise en scene really didn't take me any time, and while I was doing that, I was multi-tasking by downloading a Rilo Kiley CD. I never listened to them before, just a 30 second sample at Barnes and Noble last night. I figured I would give it a whirl, and it turns out that I really like it. I usually don't like girl singers at all, but I like this girl's voice a lot. Now I am just rambling. I think I really need to go to bed, but I am so tired that I really just don't feel like it. Do you ever feel like that? Who am I talking to? Does anyone even read this? Oh well, it is nice to pretend that people read it and care about how I waste my days, I guess.

Current Mood: Living Dead
Current Music: Rilo Kiley

No need to explain.

Current Mood: ecstatic

Well, every year around this time, I begin to feel quite philosophical. I can't say the same for this year, but I must admit that I have been doing a lot of thinking. I don't have any interesting outlooks on life to present today, but I do have some rather good feelings that I would love to share with everyone. I am taking life in stride, and I am very happy to have dreams and goals right now. The fact that I don't have much of a social life has not been getting to me, because I am content listening to Bright Eyes album after Bright Eyes album, playing my acoustic guitar, and writing some really lame poetry. Now, to the part about goals. I know that I don't have a boyfriend, and I know that it has been nearly a year since I have had one, but it is my goal to find someone this year to like, befriend, and potentially date and be happy with for a long time. I am strong in knowing what I am looking for in a boy, and I do not think I am being completely unrealistic in any way. I do have my eye on someone, but I don't really know enough about him to make any drastic judgements. However, I would love to know more. Oh, how I would LOVE to know more. But anyway, I have decided to compile a list of very important things that I want to look for in a guy.

Checklist:
-Open minded
-A cracked pot
-Understanding
-Intelligent
-Shares some of my interests
-Isn't on drugs
-Doesn't chew or think it is the coolest thing in the world to drink
-Has a passion for something (I don't even care what it is.)
-Has goals in life (even if they are ridiculously idealistic)
-Knows himself very well
-Has depth
-Is honest
-Isn't obsessed with me
-Mellow
-Respectful
-Interesting
-Gorgeous? Sure, that would be a plus.

Ah, I love being happy. I love being helpful, and right now, more than anything, I love being confused.

Current Mood: Drunk (on life)
Current Music: Bright Eyes (medley running through my head)

I wrote a couple of poems recently. I have a total of five minutes to type both of them. Let's see if I can do it.


Waking Up

Here I am again
Two years later
Summer is ready to make its final cameo
Playing the role that I have been waiting to see
Reentering a year that is continuing
To fly by
Just like the past, just like the future
But unlike the deep slumber
That's been lingering for years
Until this very moment,
Where my eyes are wide open
To see the world for what it is
Summer is beautiful
High school is nothing but necessary
Friends come and go
Society is ill
But how am I?
I am secure, energetic, and relieved
All I need now
Is a cure for my lonliness




Oh, Such is Life. . .

I am always hiding
With my nose in a book
My eyes on a prize unobtainable

My mind wanders to places unknown
Where no solutions can ever be found
Where every law seems to be unwritten
And unheard of

I live my life like a role in a movie
Assuming that everything works out in the end
Shooting myself from a low angle
Where I appear to be large
Towering over society
Where everyone else should be

Of course, this isn't reality
I am truly small, hidden amongst the crowd
Longing to be found
Longing to stand out
And climb my way to the top of the world
With someone who understands
Right behind me

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Bright Eyes

Well summer is gone, and I have already been in school for a week; four days anyway. It isn't too bad so far, but anything would be better than last year. I think this year is going to be really easy as far as school work goes. Socially, I am not so sure. It seems like a lot of my friends have drifted away and it is just me and a couple other ones. I don't know, it doesn't really make sense. The worst part about it is that I don't even really miss being with these people, because they have changed so much. I feel like I need to stop being childish and being so nice to them, when all they do is treat me like shit. For some reason, with this school year, I have gotten a whole new attitude. I feel like I can do anything, and I am a lot more relaxed. I just feel like I don't have to care about all the little bullshit that comes along with being in high school. I am happy just being by myself, with my computer and my guitar, and with the few friends I have that really care about me and don't try to drag me down. Hell, even if they don't care about me, at least they aren't trying to drag me down. I am Editor in Chief of my Journalism class, and it feels great. It just feels so awesome to be the one running show for a change, instead of the one being stomped on by everyone else. I have met some really nice people through that class, a couple that I never would have talked to without it, and I really like it. All of my classes seem to be easy, my English teacher isn't all that awful, and I am getting along with everyone. The biggest downside to school right now? It was only the fourth day today and I am already sick.
Ok then, enough about school. My last few days of summer really sucked. I did nothing with them, and I just didn't have any fun. I had plans to go to a John Ralston concert, but something in my uncle's car broke the day before. So, that night I just stayed at my grandma's and watched "Silent Hill," and on Sunday, I finished my summer reading. It wasn't all that bad. I just really hated Alice in Wonderland. Let's see, what else? Oh yeah. I have decided that I am not going to Homecoming this year, because I have an amazing friend named Louis that is going to be in Cleveland that day for a horror convention. I will be spending the day with him, in my Homecoming dress, with my hair done, in a place that I love. I figured that it would be much better than the alternative; being in my gym, without a date, listening to crappy rap music, surrounded by people who disgust me. It is going to be a blast. We are buddies, and he is my favorite ever. All I have to say on that subject is, "Damn you, distance!" because that...however many miles it is from here to Holly, MI screws all kinds of stuff up. Oh well, I'll see him in October. Can't wait. Goodnight, all!

Wow, so much stupid stuff has happened recently. However, some good things have happened as well. I went to a Dashboard Confessional show in Pittsburgh with TJ on the 5th. It was an another amazing experience. While I was there, I seemed to forget about a lot of bad things that have been going through my mind; going back to school, not having a boyfriend, not finishing my summer reading in time, my mom being very uncool lately, some friend problems, the times that I have been rejected, my bad emotions in general. I just had a really nice time, got to spend a day with my best friend in the world, doing something that I absolutely love. The show was great, Dashboard was amazing as usual. They brought a guy named John Ralston on tour with them, and he played a song of his own. Right there, I was instantly hooked. I bought the CD the next day, and I have been listening to it, thinking about it, and singing it ever since. Thank God for Dashboard Confessional, they are a good part of why I manage to keep my sanity. I love them.

Now for the stupid stuff. A person that I have had problems with in the past has completely snapped to the point of me being paranoid and feeling the need to look over my shoulder everywhere I go, in fear of this person being around (I just checked my backdoor). I will not go into any details, but it is just a bad situation, and it has just added more reasons for me to be nervous all the time, and another reason why I am glad to be in counseling. Another thing, I told a friend of mine that I liked him. I really did, and he claimed to have liked me too for a long time. He asked me out the next day, which I was hoping that he wouldn't do. Because I already told him that I liked him, and because we had an audience, I said "Yes" against my will. That lasted...either 2 or 3 days and he came over to tell me that he likes this other girl and that he didn't want me to end up hating him. I was really happy that he didn't want to continue the "relationship" because it was just not right. I didn't feel comfortable, and it was very obvious that he didn't either. Now that is all settled, but it was just dumb to have jumped the gun on the whole situation.

Other than that, my job has gotten better. They bought a new computer and have me making all of the ads and whatnot for them. It has really made things easier on me when it comes to working there, and I am not feeling as pressured. I actually turned down another job offer that I got, because I have started to like it so much. Just in my one month of working there, three employees have come and gone. That is really bad, and I really don't understand it. I wish that my boss would hire more reliable people. It is a shame that they keep getting screwed over like they are. It is really rough on them. I wish I could do something to help out other than just being a dedicated worker. I can't though, so oh well.

I have gotten really close to a couple of my friends. I really love my friends more than anything. I have a friend that I would actually die for. He is the best in the world and I am more than happy to have someone like him behind me at all times. He supports me in everything I do, is honest with me, can joke around with me, puts up with my venting when I decide to get pissed off, and is even there when I hate being alone and need someone to give me hug or something. Also, for the record, he is also the only guy in this world who has permission to slap me in the face at any given time, grab my ass, poke me, punch me, or even full-force kick me in the vag. However, if he ever decides to pull that one again, he can expect to be nailed directly in the balls. That would be okay though, because he would still love me anyway. My friends are the best. I am going to bed now. Goodnight, y'all.

Current Mood: energetic

Well, well, well, things have changed quite a bit. I have a few bigger fish to fry other than being single. I have been really upset about certain family situations, my great grandma is losing her mind. It is a really sad situation, and I have already lived through that once with someone much closer to me. I thought that I would share a sad story with everyone. On Monday, it was my cousin's first birthday party, so I chilled with my great grandma, my uncle dave, and his friends April and Shawn from work. I had a really good time, and my great grandma was being pretty cool and not such a spazz. Anyway, nothing happened there, but I just needed it for an intro. The next day, my great grandma called my house just to talk to me and see what I was up to. She was telling me about how great of a time she had at the party, and how she loves the baby, and how she just wishes she could have been that close to me when I was a baby. She said "You just have to live and learn, I guess." Well, she is right there. BUT, she said that I made up for the fact that we were never really that close by calling her "Grandma" at my cousin's birthday party. I normally call her Great Grandma, and that was the first time ever that I dropped the "great". I never realized how important something so small could be to her. It meant so much to her, because she basically has no short-term memory anymore. She has Alzheimer's, but she remembered that clear as day. It made me feel really special, like I had really done something for her that was a huge deal, even though I didn't even mean anything by it. So, we kept talking, and I did a great job of hiding the fact that I was crying my eyes out while I was talking to her. There is some new stupid movie coming out about bugs, and she asked me if I wanted to go see it with her. It is a joke, I made her take me to see Antz when I was little, and she hated it. Haha, and I said "sure if you want to." and her response was "Naw, honey, I don't want to see something so stupid, but you and I have got to spend some time together one day and go to a movie." That was pretty much the end of the conversation, but the whole thing really opened up my eyes a little. Lately, I have sort of been avoiding her because she is getting sick and says a lot of things that she really doesn't mean. To keep from getting upset by any of it, we just really don't see her much. However, I want to start enjoying the time that she can still be like she always was, instead of seeing what is going to happen to her in the future. Yeah, so that is one of the many things that have been running through my mind lately, but we can move on to a lighter note.
I got my first job on the Fourth of July at Ianazone's Homemade Pizza on West Blvd., and it is pretty comparable to hell. It is not like I hate the job, and it is not that I am lazy, but it is a lot of hard work that is not fair to the employees. I am being paid $5.15 an hour to do the work of about three or four people and coming home with a backache like you wouldn't believe, burns all over the place, and my Cerebral Palsy bothering me to the point that I can't even walk right, and that hasn't bothered me in years. Last night, the burn on my hand made me nauseous because it was oozing all kinds of crap and I somehow managed to cut it open at work. It was awful, so I got home and laid in the bathtub for a long time and went to sleep. I slept for 12 hours without waking up, and I am feeling a lot better today. Today, I spent the day cooking and baking, which was super relaxing compared to what I am used to. Oh, I have some interesting to say now!
I spent the last week at YSU for the Summer Honors Institute program, and I took two classes; Cryptography and Creating Electronic Music. I loved both of my classes, but I really didn't get to make any friends there. That kind of sucked, but one person made up for it. I met a really nice boy named Mike that is a lot like me. We like a lot of the same music, and we are both complete nervous wrecks. It was great, he was really nice, and we hung out together in Creating Electronic Music and walking to and from class. I made him a Mix CD. He said that he liked it. I left my phone number in it, but I doubt if he will ever get back to me. I haven't done too much lately. I have just been working and hanging out occasionally. I went to breakfast yesterday with Chaz and hung out until around 5, then went to Selah Cafe with Jenn and Dawn, then to the Boardman park, then swimming at Dawn's. That was a lot of fun. Dawn fell over the fence at Kids Town. Haha, sorry Dawn if you read this, but that was hilarious. I wish I would have had my camera to capture all of the interesting moments we had yesterday. As for today, I did absolutely nothing. I have been just hanging out and sleeping all day. Now, Jenny is about to come over, and I am not sure exactly what we are going to do. Regardless, I suppose it will be cool and much better than sleeping outside and doing nothing. Well, that is the monthly update. I am going to try to update much sooner next time. See ya!

Current Mood: BORED

Hey, y'all...I haven't updated this thing in a while. For some reason the past week seems to have been a blur. I am not sure why, but I can't seem to remember much of anything that I did. For the most part, I have just been watching depressing movies (GOOD DEPRESSING MOVIES)and sulking over the fact that I am single in a place where I have no interest in anyone. That is never cool. NEVER. I am a dreamer, and when it comes to boys, that is not a good thing. I want a Charlie, a Holden Caulfield, or even an Igby (without the drugs, of course). I don't know, I have ridiculous ideals, and I am starting to think that I have no chance in finding a nice boy. My best friends might as well be married to their boyfriends; it is amazing to me. I can't keep a boyfriend for more than a couple months, and I can't even seem to find anyone to like. I just don't get it. The nastiest, phoniest, sluttiest, least trust-worthy, ugliest, fattest, most rotten girls have great boyfriends. Then, here I am, cute, nice, willing to devote myself to a boyfriend, willing do deal with all the crap the comes along with being in a relationship, longing to have someone to be with...and I have no one. There is no one. NO ONE. I just want to feel that feeling; where everytime you see this person you smile, your day starts to look up, no matter how bad it is going, and you can look into someone's eyes and take them seriously when they say you are beautiful. I don't know. I am sick over this whole thing. I am lonely. I am depressed. I am extremely jittery. I am crying. I woke up at 1:00 today, and I still feel like I need to go to bed ASAP. I am going to watch "Igby Goes Down" again, and probably dream about a dream boy that will never exist. I have a feeling that I will be calling my counselor before my next appointment. I am a wreck. I need to go to sleep. Goodnight.

Current Mood: Insane

Well, for starters, Wednesday was awesome. I went to see Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers, and they happened to be playing with Stevie Nicks (which really wasn't all that exciting to me). I will admit, I wasn't exactly thrilled about going to this concert, but I wasn't paying for it, so it was all good. The ride there was pretty nice, and the concert was awesome. The reason why I was never really a Tom Petty fan was because my mom really didn't have any of his awesome music. She had a lot of the slow, sappy crap, when most of what he played was like upbeat blues rock. I really enjoyed it, and that guitarist is sweet. I was really happy when they played "Last Dance with Mary Jane." I really love that song; I used to listen to it when I was a little kid. I got home around 3:30 AM, fell asleep about 4:30, and had to be up at 8 and on the road to Sebring to film "Hilljacks" with Eli. Me, TJ, and Breckner went out to Eli's house and had a blast. Now, the filming was nothing like he said it would be, but it was still a lot of fun. I met some really cool people who I hope to see again someday. For my role, I got to spit a drink on this boy and slap him in the face. I have a wicked slap, haha. The second day of filming, TJ didn't come, but it was still a lot of fun. I actually think it was more fun than the day before. I got to do a little more acting, actually a little bit of improv, and I met some more awesome people. There was only one kid there that didn't like me. He said I made him nervous or something. Then he said that pretty girls made him nervous, and I wasn't sure if I should be flattered or insulted by his bullshit. Regardless, it was all good. I have been real busy so far this summer, but it is already off to a great start. I love this summer, and it isn't even going too fast. I am enjoying it and taking each day as it comes. Something tells me that that things are just going to keep getting better. I can feel it.

Current Mood: optimistic

I have a feeling that this summer is going to be a great one. It's already off to a good start. Friday, everything went well with going out to eat and having a party. Haha, at the restaurant, Lindsay decided to mess with the Mexican waitor, and he followed us outside and hung out with us. If only we could have gotten him to pay...The party was pretty nice. I had quite a few people over here and everyone seemed to get along. There were a couple of moments that made me feel a little uneasy, but nothing too bad. There wasn't much of a mess to clean up and it was a nice clear night. For the past couple of days it has been way too cold for June, but it will warm up soon enough. I think the high for today is like 70. For the past two days, I have just been at my grandma's house. I stay with her when my grandpa works the night shift; she doesn't like to be home alone. Last night, I started watching "Jarhead" and I think it is amazing. I finished it off this morning, and it was the first movie ever to make me cry. The thought of going through all of that: war, seeing people die, being away from home, your girlfriend cheating on you, it killed me. That was the first war movie I have ever seen that actually is straight up, true to life. There was no underlying story line, no romantic love story, just a look into the life of a marine who is training and going to war. While the plot meant a lot to me, I am not ashamed to say that Jake Gyllenhaal is the sex. That is the whole reason why I rented the movie, haha. I love that man. He is an awesome actor. How he can go from playing a gay cowboy to playing a marine is beyond me. Yeah, everyone should go rent or buy that movie. It is amazing. Currently, I am still looking for someone to go to the new skatepark with me, because I don't want to go sit there alone while everyone is skating. Unfortunately, no one is interested. Oh well, the weather is looking a little gloomy anyway. I am going shopping with Grandma later. That will be fun. Bye bye, guys!

Current Mood: awake

Tomorrow is my last day of school! Aren't you excited? I am. This year has been hell, and I am SO happy that it is over. I have had a really good week this week, besides a few minor confrontations. I have been chosen to be Co-Editor in Chief for the school newspaper, which is a really big deal to me. I am really excited about it, because I thought it was only a senior position. Journalism is my life. I LOVE IT. In English class, we have been writing a lot of poetry, and I am really proud of the stuff that I am capable of coming up with. Also, I am shocked at how awesome all of my classmates are at poetry. Most of them claim to hate it, but they all do a really good job. Ahh...I can't wait to go to college. I can focus on nothing but English classes, and that will be awesome. Another thing that I am thrilled about is the fact that my math teacher gave everyone 8 extra points on their final exam, giving me a 90% for the year, which would give me a 4.0. That meant so much to me, I don't think I can thank that woman enough. Everything has been looking up for me. I have been a hell of a lot happier lately, getting along with my mom, doing well in school. I cleaned out my locker today, and it was the best feeling in the world. It was like "Yes, this year is finally over, and I am ready for the best summer yet." My band is finally going to be solid again, because things have gotten really rocky. It is going to be exactly as it should be; me, TJ, and Mike. There is no more Rick, meaning there will be no more problems. It is sad when I am able to say that it feels good to lose a bandmate and a best friend, but something is telling me that I have made a really wise decision about it. It will take a lot of drama out of my life and ease my stress. I got a really cute haircut, and I am going to get it dyed on Tuesday. Also, I am filming a movie with my friend in Sebring, and I am really excited. However, my plans got foiled a little for a pretty good trade. I got in the car today, and I guess I am going to Columbus on Wednesday to see Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers in concert. I don't really know much about him or his music, but from what I have heard, I think I will definitely enjoy the show. I am going out to lunch with my friends tomorrow straight from school, and then I am having a get-together at my house to celebrate our freedom from the hellhole which is referred to as SHS. It is going to be a really good day. I am so happy right now, it is sickening. Haha. I will update this sooner or later.

Oh...I have one last thing to say. The new AFI CD, "December Underground" is awesome. You guys should go buy it. It is worth the money. GREAT GREAT GREAT CD. I am actually really missing it right now...let a friend borrow it.

Current Mood: Too happy to describe

JOHNN murder: i wanna fuck what u write
JOHNN murder: its flawless

This kid is great. That might just be the most beautiful, yet disturbing and awkward thing anyone has ever said to me. Just thought I would let y'all in on the fun!

Current Mood: amused

As of yesterday, I was definitely not looking forward to tonight. See, I had planned on seeing the Alkaline Trio live at the Agora in Cleveland tonight. However, between the time that I found tickets online and went to the local Ticketmaster, the show sold out. I was extremely upset, and I was not too happy about going to the birthday party that I was invited to either. I spent the first half of my day lounging around, eating cold pizza, attempting some math homework, and watching "What Not to Wear." BOOOORING. Around 6:00 I started getting ready for my friend's b-day party. It was supposed to be a sleepover, but I wasn't too thrilled about it, so I opted to stay until about 9. No biggee. It turned out to be more fun than I thought it would be; it was just a hangout. I had a pretty good time there, and then I came home and Rick picked me up. From here, we headed to Arby's to grab a quick milkshake on our way to Movies 8. I was pretty doubtful about actually getting into "The Hills Have Eyes" because they usually ask for ID. This turned out to be my lucky night after all, and I got in without a problem. I thought the movie was really awesome. People were walking out of it in tears, including one of my friends from school that I ran into. I think I traumatized her by laughing out loud as people were shot in the head, had their brains bashed in, were burned alive, and had foreign objects forcefully inserted into their throats. Hahaha, it was sweet. I believe she said something like "You liked this!?! Gina, I love you, but you are FUCKED up." Nice, huh?

*Kisses*
-Gina

Current Mood: AWESOME

*Ahem* May I have your attention, please?

I HATE:
-People who steal
-Football
-Baseball
-People who abuse their kids
-Drugs
-Alcholol
-Fat women in skimpy clothing
-Fat hairy men
-Homophobes
-Cops
-Eyeballs
-Needles
-People who give me dirty looks in the mall for carrying a baby. Geez, it was my cousin!
-People who think they are "hardcore"
-People who use the word emo to describe cutters and people who cry
-When lesbians hit on me
-Cigarettes
-Hunting
-Animal cruelty
-Dogs (but no one should hurt them.)
-Sissy boys
-Pouting
-Modern rap music
-High school sock hops
-The fact that skimpy thongs are made for fat women
-People who blame McDonalds for their weight problems
-Papercuts
-The idea of being an American (the "All hail to us. We rock, but we aren't even an intelligent country." thing)
-Lack of education in schools
-Politics
-Political parties
-Poverty
-The unevenness of society when it comes to paying people for work
-Pedophiles
-The prison system
-Discrimination
-When people are totally whipped in a relationship
-The phone
-Cell phones
-Ipods
-Struthers High School
-Dress codes
-Going to the doctor's
-Money
-Mean old women
-The fact that I still don't know how to play the harmonica.
-GERMS
-Bad parents
-Bad teachers
-Bad students
-People who cry poor
-People who pretend to be rich
-Shoes
-Wearing clothes
-Not having a boyfriend
-Having a boyfriend
-Contradicting myself
-People who are narrow or closed minded
-Stephen Spielberg movies
-When red heads get corn rows
-Getting bloated after drinking pop
-Wearing a retainer at night
-SUCKY local bands who think they are the shit
-Making typing errors
-Not being able to find something
-Annoying girls
-Girls in general
-Taboos
-Incest
-Abortion
-Killing the innocent (Killing bad people is beautiful thing. Cleaning up society one sick bastard at a time since the stupid pigs and government can't do anything about it.)
-Hypocracy
-MySpace addictions
-The fact that I waste my time on this livejournal instead of writing this in a notebook
-The fact that I think my list of things that I hate is neverending


That is all for tonight. Sorry if I repeated anything.

Current Mood: Evil. Muah ha ha ha!

First, I will include some pictures. They are pretty much all the same, but this is all I have until I get my film developed.






The party was awesome! A few of my friends dressed up, and quite a few people showed.  Overall, I think everyone had a good time. We all ate a lot. Haha, the decorations were sweet.  GREAT TIMES! A pretty wild game of Truth or Dare went on, which I did not participate in. That is not my thing. Not how I roll. Haha. I will not mention any names, but there was some girl on girl make out sessions going on. That was not cool, but it's all good. I played some acoustic guitar and a little harmonica. It was rather nice.  My friend told me that I should be a foot model. I think she is right. I have really nice feet. Anyway, after the party ended, I went for a nice little drive with Rick through ZombieLand. My night ended there pretty much. Well, I did have to get all of the Karo syrup out of my hair and stuff. That wasn't too interesting. Now for my review of Brokeback Mountain that I told you about.

Brokeback Mountain was a very good movie.  The story line was awesome, and for being a long movie, it was very fast paced. It really wasn't what I expected, and it was pretty hot. I enjoyed seeing Jake Gyllenhall's nice little bum. However, I did not like to see Heath Ledger doing him in it. I think I am going to buy it. Wait! There was something else I didn't like about it. I thought the things with the sheep were sad, like how they were handled. I like sheep, and they were roughing them up. I just felt kind of bad. Overall, it was very good. The subject was pretty  messed up, but the director took a chance on such a controversial subject. Kudos to him. Kudos to Jake Gyllenhall for being the bun. Haha, and Kudos to the great acting, because they made the idea of gay cowboys pretty darn hot. The movie reminded me of Cambell's Soup. Mmm Mmm Good.

Current Mood: awake

I haven't updated this thing in quite a while, and some interesting stuff has happened. However, now is not the time to talk about it. Why not? Because it is my birthday and I have to tell you about my PARTY!!!! Yay. Alright, roughly a year ago, I decided that I was going to have a birthday party that revolved around a horror theme. About two weeks ago I started bringing this idea to life and it is turning out to be really cool. I hand made all of my invitations (about 45) and they are little coffins. They are really cute, and everyone got a big kick out of them. Everything in my garage is going to be red and black. I requested that everyone dress up as something scary, but hardly anyone will. It's all good though, because I am going to look AWESOME. I am just dressing up as a zombie, and I promise to post all the pictures that I take when I am done with the party. The other day, Me, Pam, Rick, Breckner, Jess, and Sammi decorated the inside of my garage. We took white tablecloths and hung them to cover everything in the garage, and splattered them with red paint which looks pretty sweet. We got pretty frisky with the idea and decided to paint with our feet. Haha, good times. I am blocking the entrance to my party with CAUTION tape and hanging a sign to welcome everyone. I made these awesome cookies that took me about five hours to do yesterday. They are homemade sugar cookies with white icing and what looks like blood splatters on them. Yummy. We are buying some really cheap pizza from the ghetto, and my mom made cupcakes this morning. I have yet to finish my costume, but it will be looking really good. I got the recipe for fake blood off of my lovely friend, Louis. However, I made too much and made it too watery, but it works. I just think that this party is going to be a great time. I am expecting between 30 and 40 people, and that will be interesting. Hopefully there won't be any drama, but if there is, Oh well. I can't believe that I am 16 already. Today is a good day! But, do you want to know the best part? Sure you do. I woke up this morning with a big old zit on my nose and I don't even care! Haha, also, I am allowing all of the early people to see me without any makeup on. Mind you, I do not sit on the FRONT PORCH if I am not wearing makeup, but I really don't care today. I am just doing whatever I want, and making the best of everything. The only thing that kind of sucks today is my music collection; most of it is slow, sappy, emo. I love that kind of music, but it isn't party music. I hope other people bring CDs. Yay, my Taco Bell is here, so I have to go. I will have the low-down on this party tomorrow, along with a review of Brokeback Mountain. I watched it last night. Have fun reading this entry which is complete nonsense.

Current Mood: accomplished

I altered this a little, because I am too lazy to bold the text. Anyway, put an X next to everything you did. If you score more than 60, you are a bad girl/boy. Yay!

1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) watched porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs

total you've done: 4

11) taken pain killers
12) taken someone elses prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wished someone to die
20) seen someone die

total you've done: 5

21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eaten a carton of icecream by yourself
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) recieved a ticket
28) been in a wreck
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar

total you've done: 3

31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own a 50 cent cd

total you've done: 4

41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something
46) been too drunk to remember anything
47) blacked out
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor
50) had someone sneak into your room

total you've done: 4

51) snuck into some else's room
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
53) been to a concert
54) dry humped someone
55) been called a slut
56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush

total you've done: 5

61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
66) had an injury
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a resteraunt without paying
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age

total you've done: 6

71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) cheated with someone
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harrassed
80) been verbally harrassed

total you've done: 2

81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours straight
84) watched tv for 12 hours straight
85) been to a fair
86) been called a bad influence
87) cursed
88) prank called someone
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) cheated on a test

total you've done: 6

91) cheated on homework
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93) been pushed into a pool
94) played pool
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you
97) had a crush on someone younger than you
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt

total you've done: 8

total: 47

I am a goodie. Yay! I want everyone to know that all of the drinking things occured a very long time ago, and that I never want to touch an alcoholic beverage again.

Current Mood: Woohoo! Done with invitations!